It’s been several months since MPH aired with any regularity.
There’s a number of reasons for this if I’m being honest.
First, and foremost, I cannot stress enough the psychoemotional impact of having lost my father had on me. As many times as I’ve written about it I’ve still not come to terms with the impact. On myself. On this household. On my family. And, even among my friends.
Second, the stress of having everyone home for months on end, 24 hours a day each and every day with no escape. We took the shelter in place to heart. We avoided the inundation of those who didn’t to our favorite scenic abodes. And, we struggled mightily to come to terms with what a seeming unending proximity to one another meant. It was tough being a father, a caretaker, a teacher, a breadwinner and my own person when there was not a moment to contemplate the meaning of each – forget about doing any of them well.
Third, as I’d mentioned before, I began to pivot away from the show in 2018 and the uninspired way in which I felt I’d began producing shows back then continued to the point where I felt it was forced for the sake of just producing something that resembled anything. I joked in that post that I only had three listeners left, but that wasn’t necessarily an untruth. Many of my friends and family had long stopped listening to the show at that point. For a number of other reasons, station listenership tailed off as did the DJ hosted shows. MPH became an “oasis” over weekends that eventually consisted mostly of pre-programmed playlists having lost three fellow shows on Sunday alone that contributed to ongoing listenership.
Further to all that, the station struggled through a crashed server, an attempted Proud Boy coup, another server incapacitation, and a massive upheaval in leadership which landed me, of all people, into an Operations Manager role that although I am qualified for honestly was more than I could handle considering where I am personally today. The rest of the revised “board” felt increasingly disengaged for their own personal reasons. As a result, the station lacks a defining goal and thus lacks direction and oversight necessary for it to get back to it’s glorious roots. Never mind having lost so much of it’s core listener base from years of issues and what now feels like a form of neglect for lack of a better term there just isn’t the support to tap off of.
My final show on KAOS, for now, was the Jersey centric #MetropolitianPeoplesHell in July. Prior to that, it was #MakinPopsHappy several weeks earlier in mid-June. And, it was several weeks earlier in May when I was attempting to realize a bunch of emotional insights through music in a quite haphazard way.
I’d decided as part of my birthday gift to myself I would reclaim my own spiritual creativity. I love the radio show
I missed falling down the rabbit hole of research trying to unearth all the important stuff related to the show theme in cultural ongoings and historical interpretations.
I missed looking up the different non-for-profits and learning about their unique missions and relevance.
I missed both discovering all the new music and rediscovering all the long archived gems that are repurposed as classics on the airwaves.
Ultimately, I missed combining the three concepts of music, philanthropy and history to fulfill my mission to make metal radio smart on a weekly basis.
I inquired about moving the show from Austin’s KAOS to bringing the show more “local” with Connecticut’s Cygnus a while back to no avail. The timing wasn’t right for anyone involved. However, this time, there was something to be had.
Cygnus has a unique background in supporting the underground that dates back to the early days of internet streaming not unlike KAOS. It was a natural draw. As was the fact that both stations are freeform, old school block programming. Something important to me because the show is more than just it’s sonically metal routes.
Thus, I made the transition. Not because I lost faith in KAOS, but because I found invigoration in the Cygnus family that included several shows I currently listen to on a regular basis and provided me with inspiration I was sorely lacking in becoming overwhelmed with the responsibility of KAOS. It was the step back that allowed me to take the step forward to get MPH back on the air.
Granted, it is only a single show old, but I am proud to call the revival show also my annual birthday show – one in which the barrier to entry is pretty low, all things considered.
As your take your musical jaunt, think about the themes embedded in the theme, such as the fact that there are themes inset to themes throughout. Look at set two and four for such a layering as just one example.
#MousePresentsHeavy is volume 1 of MPH: Music Philanthropy and History in the Mosh Pit Hell of Metal Punk and Hardcore on Cygus Radio, Old School Free Form Programming. The annual birthday episode manipulates people’s heads Friday 18 September beginning 22:00 USEDT from the Isle of Misfit toys with the doormouse, dmf.
Tune in to #MousePresentsHeavy for a celebration of the music that continues to make me metal. Nasty new numbers by Unleash the Archers, Sepultura, Vampire Squid, Gouge Away. Classic cranial crushers by Iron Maiden, Dream Theater, Blood Has Been Shed, Jesus Piece, Locked in a Vacancy, Pangea, Obscura, Origin, All for Nothing, Anomie, Bloodlined Calligraphy, Walls of Jericho, Ithaca. And, rippin requests for Opeth, Wrust, Death, Rolo Tomasi. Plus much more.
Learn about what inspires and influences the doormouse past and present as a percussionist, as a disc jockey, and as a music nerd and how it all ended up here on the show. Plus find out how to give the next generation of musicians and music fans the support they need during the pandemic from the National Association for Music Education (nafme).
MPH is making poseurs hip on your fav socnet, so use @MPHnoise to follow along and bring you best moves for the Friday Night Mosh!
— here are my show notes:
Iron Maiden “Powerslave” Powerslave (cue :14)
Unleash the Archers “Abyss” Abyss (2020) (cue :07) ***
Dream Theater “Pale Blue Dot” Distance Over Time (cue 1:07) !!!
Opeth “Deliverance” Deliverance
Sepultura “Isolation” Quadra (2020) (cue :35)
Blood Has Been Shed “And a Seraphim Cries” Novella of Uriel (long drop at ending)
Jesus Piece “Lucid” Only Self (watch intro)
Locked in a Vacancy “Mass Media Manipulation” It’s Always Darkest
Wurst “the Renegade” Soulless Machine
vampire squid “Barracuda Triangle” Reinventing the Eel (2020) (watch ending) Pangea “a Gateway to Nothing” Vespr
Obscura “the Anticosmos Overload” Cosmogenesis
Origin “Insurrection” Informis Infintas Inhumanitas
Death “to Forgive” the Sound of Perseverance
Gouge Away “Consider” CWM EP (2020) (watch long outro)
All for Nothing “Minds Awake Hearts Alive” MAHA (drum intro, hard ending)
Anomie “Indifference = mort” Anomie (hard intro)
Bloodlined Calligraphy “Know When to Hold Em” They Want You Silent
Walls of Jericho “No One Can Save You From Yourself” NOCSY (hard ending)
Ithaca “the Language of Injury” TLOI (hit early)
Rolo Tomasi “Whispers Among Us” Time Will Die & Love Will Bury It (watch ending for queue into showclose
I want you to note that some of the sets group together in more than just the sonic sub-genre they encompass. Take a look again at the second set of thrashy, metalcore influenced groove and you’ll see a common theme of Black fronted bands overlayed to it, while as you settle into the old-school circle pits of metallic hardcore punk in that fourth set you’ll also notice a common theme of Female fronted bands. See, for me, it’s not just that I love diversity that incorporating metal core and hardcore punk into prog-metal in that opening set, or techdeath in the third, it’s that I also love the diversity of humans that perform the music and while the genres are typically stereotyped as being young, cishet dudes, I’m specifically pointing there’s more to the ethnicity and gender of heavy music not because I want to especially showcase them, but because within their respective subgenres they are, in fact, some of the best at what they do which is why they are included here. I sincerely challenge anyone to tell me any of the bands like BHBS, Wrust, WOJ and Anomie aren’t essential contributors to their genres. Further to that, the show is about what “I” most listen to and enjoy and the music that is currently influencing me as an individual (fan of music, dj, performer, etc) and these are, in fact, some of the most important bands in my current rotation, which, it also just so happens that they are Black and Female fronted, which says a lot to the quality of what these bands have produced, because my digital music catalog is a terabyte deep and I have a low tolerance for garbage.
–what I ate–
I made popcorn on the stovetop. Completely old school with bagged, dried sweet corn kernels heated on an open natural gas flame in a frying pan with a hand held top.
I do this a lot by feel at this point, honestly.
The Analon 8″ French copper core, steel skillet holds about a serving of popcorn on its flat bottom. To that I add about an 1/16 stick pad of salted butter and a couple of table spoons of extra virgin olive oil along with whatever salt is in the handmill grinder and then toss to coat the kernels, the pan and the lid with the lipid combination over very low heat (to ensure the butter melts and combines with the oil).
I crank the heat to about 50% of what my stovetop BTU is, so it might be different for you. Typically takes about 5 minutes to get the pan up to temp where the first kernels begin to pop. I use a glove or small towel to help hold the lid down over the pan and give it a good shimmy or two to ensure the kernels get initial movement and then allow it to sit another minute for the popping to begin with vigor. From there I give it a quick shift/shake over the burner about every 20-30 seconds or so while there’s consistent popping which occurs over the next few minutes in order for the popper corn not to burn against the heat of the pan. As the popping cedes I increase the movement and create almost a tossing type of approach while holding the lid on, in order to ensure any unpopped kernels get a last chance of making it to the heat at the bottom.
I leave the pan off the heat on the stovetop for another minute once the popping rhythm ceases and i’ve done the final tosses before transferring the popcorn to a bowl. At that stage I do like to process some additional seasoning. Personally, I like Old Bay tossed on mine for that savory bite, but the family has taken a liking to PB2 Dried Powdered Peanut Butter which reminds me of my dad’s air popper when he’d drizzle Skippy and butter over it before serving, and I’ve not been unknown to also throw a little super fine brown sugar along with added finely fresh ground salt to give a kettle corn kind of sweet dusting to it.